Baby is MIA

So baby is gone away for the whole week.

That means I get to turn up the heat, turn up the music and run around the apartment. I get to eat whatever I want or not eat at all if I choose not wondering "what's for dinner?" I get to dress down in sweats and t-shirts cause no one is going to notice or care. I can stay up late and wake up late because I have the car....

I am Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo f-ing lonely. Like the whole house feels so empty. I miss him it is unbelieveavle. I am usually the one who goes away for weeks and months and he doesn't mind. He has been gone for like three days and I am already begging him to come home. He doesn't return until Monday morning. Meaning I am going to be by myself for exactly One week and one and half days (he left on Saturday). And he is in Florida. Which isn't like me going to Baltimore, I mean he is miles and miles away. Damn I can't even take a train or drive down in 4 hours to see him. What the hell

Last night I couldn't sleep. I heard everything my neighbors were doing! Disgusting

Woke up this morning grouchy and I actually missed the fact that he wasn't here to say "Good morning and how are we today?" or the insistant rapping on the door cause I am wasting time on my face!

I have become dependant on him.

What makes it worse is that I have no cell phone so I can't call anyone (including him). But I have the car so I can' drive wherever I want whenever I want. Not that living in this hick town there is anywhere to drive to! In otherwords, the next few days are going to be full of sleep, gym and school work. I will fill my days with work and exhaust myself that way I am not missing him too much.

Somebody CALL ME!