You have unleashed the Bitch!

For the last three years I have kept silent and even though I told you how I felt you thought it was a game. But now you have unleashed the bitch and I am not having this shit anymore!

The funny thing is when you are the one being persecuted everyone just turns the other way and says stupid shit like "Oh that is how she is..." or "Oh I am sorry, but I will get around to talking to her" or "We must learn to accept and be willing to forgive" and stupid shit like that but once you turn the tables and just totally shun that person or act like you don't give a damn then everyone turns around and blames you for all the drama

For starters, when we first met you treated me like I wasn't worth your time! You really talke bad to my face and said somethings that were not polite and nice for someone who was just meeting you and I took it because I didn't want to embarass ---- or disgrace my family name but I am NOT taking it anymore.

I think the stress of school and the drama with my own family and the stress of getting my wedding and my girls wedding together has taken a toll on my ability to be rational and not act like I dont' give a fuck anymore! I think I have reached a boiling point and there is no one that can calm my ass down.

This weekend started off great! I was going to spend the better part of my days at home curled up with Baby under the sheets watching re-runs of CSI:MIAMI and Greys Anatomy on U.S. and A&E but is that what happened? No, instead I found myself pissed off and fighting for my breath under this sea of rage that is brewing. I need anger management!

Even after we talked it is perfectly clear that I am not calm and I am never going to be okay. In fact I have made up my mind
1. I am never going back there again. You couldn't drag me there! I said I wasn't going for Christmas and new Year and I didn't! Now I am saying it loud and clear. Fo my sanity and so that my father's name will not be dragged in the mud I am NEVER GOING BACK THERE AGAIN!

2. If you so much as come into my space and fornicate it with anything (your breath, you negative energy or even your phony care) You will see my true colors. If any of you ever so much as breath my air and breath anything negative I am done

3. IF ANY MOTHER FUCKER even thinks that they can come and destroy my relationship and try and damage what I spent tears and time building for the last FIVE FUCKING YEARS OF MY LIFE! They better think again! I am not playing

This is not a fucking game! People think that because I am quiet and don't say anything that when you disrespect me I take it, when you disrespect my father I allowed it (that was my bad) when you say what you want and I just smile that I am a fool. I am NOT A FOOL! I am trying to be nice. But I am DONE

I feel like I have been saying that word so many times the last few months. If i tell you I am DONE! that fuck it! I am DONE! and I told you I was done but you decided to drag me over there and I went, I should have sat at home, I should have eaten my apple pie and drank my little juice at home! I NEVER SHOULD HAVE LEFT MY FUCKING BED!

The nerve

Anyway in other news:
I wrote a blog last year April about a girl that I was freinds with and her husband was psycho, apparently I cut her out of my life because as Nigerians go, he wanted to create havoc in my life and I wasn't having his stress, well guess who emerged into my life again.
I find if funny that everytime I start to mend fences with B.F. this girl just comes barrelling back into my life. Even though B.F. and I are back on track I am never going to open the door for this girl again. I mean I spent a whole six months wishing I hadn't made my choice but I am so done with that. She called my sister three times in the last two days demanding "rudely" that Monika give her number to me like I am going to pick up my phone and call you.

Like my life and the people in it are not giving me enough drama I am going to add you and your crazy husband to the mix! What the fuck is wrong with people, this is supposed to be my DRAMA free year!

I am exhuasted and my week just started!

Well that was my weekend...How was yours?