Working on D's invites has kept me mentally stimulated and kept my mind from dwelling on my own life. It is kind of like a therapy from me paying attention to the life waiting for me...
My life isn't bad it is just plagued with stress. When you think about it, I have come a long way from last year but there is still so much that has to be done. It's like when you get almost to the end of a battle, the battle seems harder...
For instance ever notice the last few minutes in a marathon are the ones that you feel you can't make, or the last few bites of a big meal are the ones you feel you can't eat. Well the last few bits of this pie are killing me and I find that I can't sleep and so I stay up late, and I hate getting up to face the day. Thankfully the invites keep my mind glued to the television and my own problems at bay
I am upset right now because we are not moving. As much as I looked forward to it I see the reasoning and I am pissed I gave in. I feel cornered and trapped and I don't like it. No, baby didn't trap me, the facts of the matter are, it isn't the right time. I am a planner and I have already planned my B-day and all my friends coming up, but it's not the right time for that too. So life sucks! Yep! I am pissed! I am hurt! I am mad!
These last few bites of this fucking (yeah I cursed) pie suck! I wish someone else would eat it or something cuzz I can't deal right now!
Baltimore is my escape, no wonder I hate going back, reality sucks too!
7 comments:
Hang in there, dearie. Remember, dark clouds always move on :)
Thanks kay, and congrats on the house! now I have a legit place to stay when i roll into Houston! A ma we oh! (You know how we do the drinks!)
amoti! yeah. bummed you're leaving on wednesday. i mean.. you just got here! all i thin of is fun, food, drinks, tv and invites. lol. anyhoo. will be home soon. crunch time!
So r u saying October is off?
Thanks :)
leaving already? i thought you were staying a while?
vixen: hell no! Where there is a will there is a way
kay: so waiting on my invite to houston
wale: yeah, I don't want to leave too. But I have to get some stuff sorted out at home.
dami: crunch time girl, we are knocking these suckers out like no tomorrow. They will go out jare. almost done!
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