After Thought...

Okay so I resently had a conversation with a person who asked me to name the top five things that matter most to me and list why? When I started to list my family and people I love he said "not people, or places or goals, things...emotions etc"

1. Trust
Why trust? well trust trumps love in my book. Some say that love conquers all, include "the good book" but in my book I value trust more than anything. If I love a person and that person isn't trustworthy, they will only hurt me.

2. Faith/Belief
I value faith and belief. Whether in the supernatural, metaphysical or the unknown being that controls all. I value this because I need to believe that there is something greater than me and you that controls and guides and leads. That my life has some cosmic significance or value

3. Values
A person with no values or morals or scruples can do anything. I want to know what people are capable off. To know that they have a line or a limit that they woult cross. I place values and morals high on my list

4. Love
Funny isn't it? I am a really big romantic and yet love is number 4 on my list. Love is such a strong emotion that if left alone you could be damaged and scarred for life. Love is not enough when it comes to my safety but love is necessary when it comes to relationships.

5. Freedom and control
The ability to live my life without anyone's strings or controls. To say what I feel and do what I think is right and smart. I mean I will listen to what you have to say and the freedom to evaluate opinions pick and choose. To guide myself based on the above listed and make decisions tha t affect my life while considering others. The ability to speak and act, and plan my own future. To be able to control my own future without any limitations except those that I set for myself.

After our very extensive conversation I got to thinking that I couldn't really say one is above the other but I can say that Freedom is above them all.

Really

One thing that really irks me in this life is people imposing or disrespecting another person's freedom that being said some people don't deserve the freedom they are given because they misuse this freedom and hurt others by thier careless acts and stupid decisions.

Selfish people don't deserve to be free. They deserve to be isolated on an island where thier actions will only impact themselves.

Anyway, just another lazy night where I have had nothing but music and my mind and someone pissing me off...

It's funny how one person's actiosn can make you want to just hurl a television at thier head! I promised my Bmore family that whenever I am mad I would not become violent in my blogging. I need anger management classes because all this supressing is begging to come out in many ways that I fear will not be controlable.