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This is dedicated to Vixen

Searching in the night
I find myself seeking a place
To lay
To rest the ever waring turmoil
My day brings
I find myself seeking a place
To become
The person that I once was
I find myself seeking to find
The one area on earth
That envelopes me with love
Warmth, coolness and comfort

A place where dancing naked in front
Of my window
I can gaze over landscapes of
Time and not wonder
Where next I shall find myself
A place where throwing a tantrum
In an attempt to find that outfit
I leave only to return
To the comfort that sorounds the chaos
That my rested mind can brin

My own abode,
my own home...

When will I find my place, my own, my home? Still I search on...


Okay enough deep stuff. I am back in CT. Yep the very hot CT. Can you imagine. I thought I would be coming back to cool weather after all the winter sucked with its freezing below zero weather but boy was I wrong. Either that or Vice President Al Gore has this whole global warming thing figured out! It is hot and I am sweating even though the AC is on the highest level possible.

Did I mention I am in CT! To be precise I live here now. Reality check time... I need a minute! On a serious note, I kind a missed my place of abode. At least that's what Baby and I are calling it until we can move into our home. Did I mention that we are house hunting?! Yep. I have decided that damn the Nigerian stereotype of what I should and should not do. Forget them. I refuse to return to the dorm. I refuse to live with roomates! Once bitten, twice shy. Now I just have to find a job so we can afford a good mortgage...anyone hiring?

So, after my one month of vacation this is what I have learned

1. There is no place like the wonderful arms of the one you love (awwwww, okay I need to go get another hug, give me a minute I will be right back)

2. There is no reason why you can't have real friends. I mean drop the fake people in your life. One real friend is good enough. And if you are lucky like me, you get a whole family of really cool, real friends

3. I am a diva! and I am mad expensive. I apologize T and D for all the expenses I put you through! But in the end you have only one life to live so if you want to spend over 50 bucks on a bag (no names or was that 40?) or on a pair of shoes, hey go for it. I woult hold you back. Just don't tell on me too.

4. I am responsible. Except when it comes to shopping and then again, which gorgeous diva isn't

5. I am a proud Nigerian....wait! This doesn't count, I have always been a proud Nigerian.

6. I am getting married! I just had to say this because in reality, it hasn't hit me yet. p.s. D has it hit you yet?

7. I miss my family. Being around another person's family makes you realize that there is no bond stronger than sisterhood. And yeah, I knew that but I really missed mine and hope that all's well that end's well someday.

8. uhm...did I say that I have the most good looking friends? oh i didn't did I? well stop fishing for compliments. Okay fine! ya'll are some good lookign chics, in a "I am not a lesbian, I love my baby" sort of way

9. I am a good friend! Despite what you have heard from the enemies. I am a good friend!

10. I LOVE MY LIFE! and I intend (despite my situations) to be happy. I know I will have my moments but what I experienced this month was better than any therapy that a doctor could give!

So because its 12:50 a.m. and I am still awake, I will retire with a challenge. I have lost 6 pounds people. Can you catch up? (actually I have only lost 3 but hey double or nothing right?). Gotta get my beauty sleep

CIAO